sometimes when you lose, you just want the whole worl d to lose with you but when you win, you just want to win alone and claim the credit. selfish thoughts aren't good, but they are the best.
sometimes you cant help but to think the that the whole world is against you. like especially god, sometimes i dont know if im begining to hate him or love him. like what people said god has greater plans for us, but i dont have the patient to even wait and see what awaits in the future. learning all the wrong and bad things in the world, dont tell me its my fault and not part of his plan.
i do think that i have an affinity with indians. i think i fcuking hate em, seeing them at times just get on my nerves. idiots.
darwin
奇跡見えない。
Saturday, December 24, 2005
these past few days have been sleeping rather little! let me see. who on my list have i not met!
cant really think of anyone else. lol whatever it is, please make a reservation and there is time limit! yeah right darwin who in the world do you think you are! haha mkaing yourself sound so dead popular! oh well. lets just try to enjoy the remaining holidays while you still could.
darwin
奇跡見えない。
Thursday, December 22, 2005
how am i suppose to have faith with god when he gave me such pathetic grades when i think i deserve better grade. humanities and my english 126.
man, have faith. more like crumble and fall with his faith man. my holiday mood is totally ruined by those letter grades in the websites. fucked up.
god?
what a joke man. its a no wonder people become anti-christ at times.
darwin
奇跡見えない。
Tuesday, December 20, 2005
when i thought that singapore airline air stewardess was a disaster, god sent 2 beautiful lady to brighten up my day.
well. singaporeairline babes arent that babe anymore, other then having the super WAH figure, like a 24 inch waist and a maybe 34-36inch top plus the horrible singaporean accent that i heard all the way from sf before i even stepped into singapore.
BUT. there was 2 korean airstewardess, sf to korea, korea to singapore. serve my cabin, man i was so delighted to be there. $^@%&%## details are censored though! but thumbs up for them!
2 hours delay of flight, a 777 flight instead of a 747. a detour to seoul, crowding with the indians, and not having _____________, 20 hours of coughing non-stop, stomachache and so on made the flight back miserable! ok so now you guys know that im back. im pretty lazy to tell everyone that im back, but well you can always drop me a call on my cell, my old number of course, and get in touch with me!
darwin
奇跡見えない。
Thursday, December 15, 2005
我爱日本女孩！
lol ok its outta the point.
tomorrow is the final day of examinations. and afterwards, its the the nightmare of receiving the grade. kinda freaky i say, but oh well. afterall, studying abroad isnt that easy nor simple. its tough taking care of yourself. at least i know in america, its hard to find a doctor. miss those days where i go to the medical clinic and get anti-biotics. feels kinda great though. this semester have been really tough ( not really, cause i was dumb and lazy ), but i wanna thank shona for helping me and tyo to edit our essays, really appreciate it. i also want to say thanks wx for editing my university application. sometimes i wonder how come their level of english are like so so outta of my reach, i guess its not fair.
all the best to you shona in studying for ure qualifying exams! haha live" the american dream "( though i heard its pretty stupid where by they just want to get their own house and car.) hahaha but anyway just live the american dream...
after tomorrow, ill kiss DVC goodbye for another time. 2more exam and i'll be over and done with! gambate-kunasaii.
我爱日本女孩！
darwin
奇跡見えない。
few more exams and im done with. i just pray that i will get a 4.0 this semester. dint do quite well for the exams today. and im down with a fever.
i just hope that other subjects would be fine.
one more major hurdle, business accounting. i will have to study hard for it i guess.
darwin
奇跡見えない。
Sunday, December 11, 2005
happy birthday prassy! finally someone grew up to wear BURBERRY.
!&@#&$%&$#&$%&$%, better learn to take care of BURBERRY man. hahahahahahahaha.
yesterday wasnt the wildest party, but perhaps its one of the most fun days where we interact and really acted as teenagers. another 12 more hours before your birthday ends, have fun budd.
darwin
奇跡見えない。
Friday, December 09, 2005
im glad i did my work in advance. i hope everything goes well for next week since its the final week. it is still possible for a 4.0 GPA for this semester. i know i committed enough sins right in your face. but still give me your blessings! for me and my friends.
today was oral, acted hero. tried saving yumemi, by giving her my oral presentation proposal since she dint have it. acted as a hero, and i think that i got a C in my presentation. 12.5% of the total score, its pretty freaky i say. finals starting on next monday, hopes everything go well. thats all i can pray, wish, ask for for now.
feels a little !@%!@#@%#@! after i saw my grave. not saying im pissed or anything, but please don't do that again please :'|
bittersweet rose.
p/s: joyce, its nice cause i took the picture myself!
darwin
奇跡見えない。
Monday, December 05, 2005
like what he said, " 6 mth from now, all of us are gng to different universities. hopefully, we will still keep in contact ppl! hopefully ". sometimes i wonder if 6 months later if everything would be the same. richard have taught me something, that things in life are brought to you and taken away for the evaluation of its value. like what people have always said, you wouldnt know how much something means to you unless its taken away. richard might not be the case for me, but it definitely reminded me that there is nothing that you will be by your side forever.
6 months later, when everybody have transferred, everyone would be scattered across different states in america. we made new friends and soon forget the old one. i guess reality is that harsh, isnt it. like what i said, it feels weird having someone who stayed with you for 6 months, the very next moment, you know he is gone and that you will probably never going to see him again.
dead tired. i shall go sleep now since im done with the template. i fixed the tagboard for the mozila lusers. (losers). yawns. not even my death can stop the world from moving 1 second, how insignificant can one be.
darwin
奇跡見えない。
Sunday, December 04, 2005
the next major update on my life.
well richard is gone. ( for those who dont know, hes was my roommate. )
been pretty tired this few days, sleeping only for 3-4 hours a day because of the uc application. im glad like its finally over! anyway, we went to like celebrate richard's farewell. we went to SF yesterday. Tyo, Jeffry, Imei, Halim, Richard, Me, Evan were the people who went to celebrate his farewell. like my roommate is finally transfering after 4 years. first we went off to eat, so ate at bamboo village. its pathetic that richard is in SF and he dint even try bamboo village. afterwards, we went to fisherman wharf for a walk, the view was nice, bought a few souveniers for richard too. got his SF keychain with his name and a SF keychain. so practically we were just walking around doing nothing like any other teenagers. played this machine, where you are supose to move the lever right and left to push the ball up to the top. was so near in winning the grandprize, but well too bad. went pass the wax museum. there was this sign where it said, do not touch. and richard's itchy hand went to touch and the siren came on. it was so embarrassing. .... richard is at 20 yet hes still as childish and immature like a 8 years old kid. his age really doesnt reflect his maturity...
afterwards, we went home after sighseeing, and then everyone came to my house. bought greentea and chivas regal ( whiskey ). man, whiskey is so much better than vodka. i dont understand how can anyone be so dumb to drink vodka when it taste like shit. lol. nobody got drunnk of course, well. richard fell asleep afterwards, and left the whole gang sitting there and chatting. we even had to carry his luggage for him and load it in the car.
nxt morning we went to SF airport, handed him the photoframe and keychain with our group picture taken inside. we also wrote something on the back of the photo , and he ....... left. feels weird. not that i miss him or anything, like its just weird not meeting someone for the next part and rest of your life. afterall, i stayed with him for like 6 months. and 6 months later from now, the same thing would perhaps happen. maybe all my friends that i made here, are gonna leave me and go to another university in other states. so i guess singapore isnt that bad, since singapore is so small, its always easier to meet up. jurong to changi is only 42 km, its not far at all.
came home did the cleaning, richard really left a big pile of mess for me to clean. dead tired after clearing like 6 bags/boxes of rubbish.. so many junks he left. well, i only kept his old computer. well well, let just hope that we get to see the skinny boy again. richard soenjaya.
all i can tell you now, is that you have to learn to grow up and do well chard, pleaase be more mature, sensitive and sentimental. see you again, if we do ever meet again.
